Not much better than enjoying a lot of anonymous cum in your holes. I had a young roomie who jerked off a LOT and put his loads in the freezer in a popsicle mold, so I could use it as a devil's dick (pre-load my asshole with sperm when I went to the baths). I used to use it as an ice cube in my drinks too because he's fill the thing up every other day and I didn't want all that cum to go to waste.
Do it! Don’t keep delaying it; you're only negative emotion you'll experience is regret that you took so long. Leave me a message for further encouragement, and when you've taken the plunge, or slow walk into the sea.